Hey guys,
Well I usually don't like to share all my private things online but right know my heart is exploding and I need to write smth. before I am doing smth. wrong or I am going to hurt my self I am going to writea blog.  I think this blog will be one of the most honest blogs ever.
Why the name of my blog is called Stressed.Depressed but well Dressed? I never really thought about it but know my blog describes my situation right now.
Right now I am sitting in my bed with a cup of inner balance tea of www.fittea.de that hopefully helps calming me down.
I never felt so lost. It is like a black hole in my heart. Nobody before made me feel like that. My heart beats fast and my whole body is shaking. There is smth. missing and you can't do anything against it. Your biggest wish would be that everything could be how it was. Why NOW? WHY ANYWAY?
Now is the worst time its NEW YEAR.. we kissed for a happy new year 2015. WHY NOW? I am so stressed because of school it s my final year. I never felt so weak. I tried to fight for us, for him.
Well it did not help anything. I lost the fight I lost him.